So I had a ticket for the LAST EVER Bleached Wail gig at the Sugarmill last night, and I went and met Rosanne, Georgia, Rae, Kathryn, Penny and Penny's odd boyfriend, Sam there. But I saw Dan and Tom outside so went and spoke to them and walked in with them so I didn't have to walk in alone. I recently upset Dan by telling Tom that he had asked me for sex. Which he did, but I didn't think that Dan might not want Tom to know this as Tom is his best friend and knows everything so I presumed he already knew. However, Dan got angry and hasn't spoken to me since. So when he saw me he waved but didn't act normal - he used to be happy to see me, hug me, say hi etc but all I got was a simple wave. So I stood and spoke to Tom. Then I stood with the girls for a while before any bands came on. I wasn't expecting to see anyone else I knew, but in walks in all the guys I know and I was like 'Oh fuck, what if Scragg's there?' Fortunately he wasn't, that would have been awkward and upsetting. So we watched the first band from the platform, then we went proper into the mosh for Bleached Wail like right in the fucking centre. It was amazing, no matter how battered and bruised I am this morning I enjoyed it so, so much. I full on straddled this guy, got a crowd-surfer land on my head, and made a friend with someone who was practically forced into dry humping me from the side. Lush ;) He was a hottie. As a bonus, Rich was there. Rich is gorgeous, we've kissed before but no-one knows and I love that because it's like our little secret. Last night he held my face in my hands, and when I asked why he did it he said 'because you're dead good looookin' Whatta charmer?! ;) :P However, the age-old topic cropped up of 'you shagged your best mates boyfriend, behind her back!' 'you sucked scragg's dick, and swallowed his jizz' etc. This is true, but it's old and I wish people would move on. Even just a little bit, I take the shit in my stride because I don't wanna show how much it upsets me. Then I started to get upset because 'my best-friend's boyfriend' hugs me so sweetly and tells me how he 'loved' me and still likes me, and then he always kisses me on the forehead and it just knocks the wind out of my sails a little every time. So I had to just move away, and I came home on a high all sweaty and exciteable :) GOOD NIGHT BASICALLY AND I NEED MORE LIKE THAT TO GET ME BACK ON TRACK!
Then today. What. A. Pilarva! I woke up at HALF PAST SIX! :| Most painful period pains I've EVER had, tried even position and ended up getting out of bed and going to get a hot water bottle and hotchocolate. I curled up on the sofa and watched Sisterhood of the travelling pants, gave into ibruprofen and bawled my eyes out. MY plans got ruined, i went for 'coffee and cake' with my mum, watched mean girls, applied to the bodyshop, ate shit loads of food and read through old birthday cards, tumblr 30day letter challenge of which i did 3, and my leavers book. Cried some more. Looked at this dead creepy thing about 911, cried some more. and yeah. i enjoyed today i guess. but i need a fresh start. i gave up on my 4 week plan, but im guna try and do it my way from monday cos i want a routine for college so yeah. just opened up proper good there.
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