Wow! I haven't blogged in almost a whole month! That's bad. I realise I need to start doing it more because it feels good to vent and I need to cheer the fuck up these days; I'm getting pretty damn depressed. I HATE college very nearly as much as school - rules don't suit me, there's too much work for someone as lazy as me, I have to take French which I don't want to(but atleast only until like May/June time), I'm there almost all day everyday which is the worst because I hope for more free time at college and I hardly have any. My late day was a Wednesday - I didn't have to start 'til 11 but now I have to come in 40minutes earlier just for fucking French speaking practice which I really don't want. We're now supposed to go to that on a weekly basis (and might get a slot in Spanish aswell!) however since I dislike French and don't give a single fuck if I fail it cos im only doing the AS then I may turn up late/not at all sometimes :) Plus, this whole Charlie thing seems to be going just a shittily as things have gone with any other guy for me. I just can't do it, and I mean I really want this to work out because I think it would be good for me and make a change but he seems to not care much or he's scared because of what he's heard about me maybe? Which is stupid because he didn't know me then and he hasn't spoken to me about it and most of the stuff that goes round about me isn't 100% true. Well hopefully I'm just being overly stressy/worried about this and it will turn out ok.

^^K, so I wrote all that like an hour ago. I stopped because my stepdad came storming up the stairs all stroppy so I put my work on the screen so he couldn't have a go at me and then I ended up being like 'COME ON LIZZIE! YOU CAN WRITE THIS FUCKING ESSAY!' So I've just finished it ha :) And now I'm really not in the mood to rant because I know it will just get me all depressed when I'm slightly happier right now, now that I know I won't have that work to do. Just all my art and photography, and my French essay but that's for next week so I'm not even thinking about it. K bye.